Somebody around here linked this on mangadex a few months ago, and I haven’t been able to stop binge-reading yuri manga since. True story.

ROFL, I always wondered if that was intentional or not. Thanks for solving the mystery!

It’s basically meat sauce between burger buns. I haven’t had one in ages, but they would make frequent appearances in grade school cafeterias and other events involving large amounts of children needing to be fed with low effort. I remember quite liking them; it’s basic, but great comfort food, and easy to eat.

Along the same lines: being amused by egg_irl and yet feeling a vague and nebulous yet irresistible sense that it would be dangerous to subscribe and therefore avoiding it.

Still cis tho.

Probably the biggest one for me was always feeling discomfort when being referred to or referring to myself as a “man”. I didn’t have any problem with words like “male”, “guy”, “dude”, “lad”, “boy”, “fella”, etc., but “man” was just one step too far, apparently.

Always figured it was just a reaction to my strong distaste for toxic masculinity, and/or a reluctance to grow up. With hindsight, it seems silly that it wasn’t a dead giveaway.

Just recently I started replaying “VA-11 Hall-A: Cyberpunk Bartender Action”. I’m also working on Rune Factory 4 Special - the remake is only 4 years old, but the original is from 2012. I still periodically fire up Castle Crashers from time to time, and I have yet to give up on my much-procrastinated attempt at Castlevania: Symphony of the Night (the Xbox 360 version).

There are many others, but that’s just off the top of my head.

Ah, yeah - I failed to provide some missing context: having read that early on is what led me to wonder. I think it also said something about ADHD symptoms potentially decreasing as well if you’re lucky, so I’ve been hoping for that outcome. 😅

Thanks, that helps. ❤️

I’ve actually been wondering about that ADHD angle, but I really didn’t want it to be the case. 😬 It would make sense, though.

I guess there’s not much to do but, as you say, take it a day at a time and try not to beat myself up any more than the dysphoria already is. I’m not too concerned about maintaining any particular pace or “deadline” for transitioning, it’s just frustrating to not be able to chip away at my sources of dysphoria.

I guess what’s got me most down lately isn’t the dysphoria per se (although there’s plenty of that), but more the fact that between fatigue and executive dysfunction, I can’t seem to keep up with any aspect of transitioning that takes effort, which is most of them. Lately I’ve pretty much just been taking my HRT pills and shaving my face every 3-4 days. It’s something, but at this rate it’ll be a long time before I can actually make significant progress.

❤️

After my egg cracked almost 6 months ago now, I went through a lengthy phase where a lot of music would make me burst into tears from sheer relatability. I thought I’d stabilized enough to be over that by now, but just the other day, Peter Gabriel’s “Solsbury Hill” got me good. Those themes of stepping out of the hazy drudgery of your comfort zone to embrace a new reality in the face of general confusion and/or disbelief, and having it feel so very right, are absolutely on point for the trans experience.

The track I stumbled upon early on and keep coming back to is Röyksopp & Robyn’s “Every Little Thing”. It really felt/feels like a call from my inner woman to my repressed AMAB shell, and has become the motivational anthem for my transition.

But how would you get all the termites to remain in the house instead of wandering off somewhere else?

If he’s young enough, he might be getting his safety net from parents or something. I could see this being viable part-time work for, e.g., college students.

“mfw”: am I a joke to you?

Looks like Pixelfed is about 2%. Try Mastodon, I guess - it’s listed as 72%.

EDIT: lol, I just did a quick search - apparently Instagram’s monthly active user count is over two Billion. With a ‘B’. Even with 10 million, it wouldn’t compare.

Clicking through to the additional statistics is really interesting. The equivalent graph for Monthly Active Users shows a big bump in June/July 2023. That lines up with the reddit event, iirc. If those causality assumptions are accurate, it’s neat how the numbers for total users is more affected by Twitter, but the numbers for active users is more affected by Reddit.

EDIT: nevermind, I didn’t realize the timelines were different. The big Twitter exodus isn’t actually in the second graph, so they can’t be compared. It probably had a bigger impact there as well.

This is for the fediverse as a whole, not just Lemmy. If you click through, there’s a pie chart that shows the vast majority of users are on Mastodon. Lemmy only accounts for about 4% of these numbers.

I used my chosen name for the account while setting up a fresh Windows installation. Seeing it on the login screen made me feel so euphoric that I broke into tears.

10/10, would build a PC again.

New gender goals just dropped.

This is so right. The problem with insisting on hearing every side of every argument is that you’ll end up spending so many hours of your life just absorbing the thoughts of people who are completely clueless, potentially even making yourself dumber in the process. It’s just not scalable.