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Cake day: June 18th, 2023

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  • Been a bit fucked.

    My wife and I have had to drop about $2k in unexpected car maintenance bringing us to one car for a week and a half, we had a miscarriage Tuesday night, and then our toddler had a meltdown at a diner when we tried to take a night off from cooking.

    Her obgyn told us to take a month off from trying for a kid and we have enough squirrelled away in savings, so we are going to get through this. Just a tough week, and I’m hoping next week goes smoother for us.


  • I’d go the route of archive and revisit if you feel you can some number of years from now. Most of my friend group growing up hated getting photographed, so I don’t have a huge portfolio. That said now that I am married and have started to have kids it is nice to be able to look at photos with my partner.

    One of my close friends I’ve known since grade school had started HRT within the last year or so. Every now and then she sends selfies of where she is at and how far she came from. For her the old pictures appear to be a point of pride, but I can’t say how many she might have gotten rid privately. Not my place to pry.

    I still hate a number of photos from when I had less exposure to the world, but a good number of photos are of a happy kid raising geese or playing with their cousins.

    From my own experience I’d say I regret deleting/destroying some photos, and past me had been too critical of myself to the point that a lot of memories were never documented. That said some photos are just so opposed to who I am now that they did not justify being preserved any longer.








  • I’ve always liked Clo being short for Cloaca or Cloacal. I’m not sure that I’d go through a legal change of name at this point, but when I play games online it feels natural as shorthand for my username.

    I’ve been talking with some friends about doing drag, so I’ve been spending some time thinking of a drag name. I’m leaning towards Sensual Bimorphism. It feels fun and I like the idea of playing with the idea of animals having drastically different appearances based on sex.








  • We just celebrated nonbinary parents day for me yesterday in our household.

    Although my parents are conservative they did not always meet typical gender roles. My mom was more nurturing and also the breadwinner/disciplinarian of the household. My dad did more help with my schoolwork, did a lot to show me how to garden/cook, and helped me to really enjoy reading. Both taught me about the value of good work ethics, how to use a chainsaw, and how to have a sense of humor.

    The biggest takeaway that I have though is that religious ideology and toxic masculinity caused my dad to have a more distant relationship with me than we could have had. Even now I struggle to have a conversation longer than 5 minutes with him on the phone, but my mom keeps telling me how much he likes to talk to me and how much it means to him when I visit.

    My kid is a bit older than 2 and a half, and he tends to view me as the comfort parent because I’m the parent with enough upper body strength to still hold him for an hour or longer. He also likes to brush my hair after a shower and do gardening/composting with me. I also tend to be the goofier parent and am enthusiastic during play time.

    My wife does more reading and baking with him. They make up songs together and she loves to try to get him to think critically about the world. My wife also loves to talk with family and friends on the phone, so she involves him in those conversations and works to plan playdates and other activities.

    Ultimately being a parent to me means listening to my kids needs, educating him on a number of topics, and as needed being an authority figure that helps keep him inline and well mannered. No one is going to be perfect at it and what will work for one kid might not work for the next.